I'm a redeemed child of God and the momma to four vivacious daughters. I'm passionate about finding hidden blessings in the trials of life, living it out in an honest and open way, while encouraging those around me to believe in better.


my god-given story

Here’s the thing.  My family is currently facing the most unspeakable of situations.  But what I’ve come to realize is that it’s part of the story God has allowed to me.  And please … I don’t say this lightly, religiously, or tritely … do I want this as part of my story?  Absolutely not.  But do I accept it?  Yes.

I believe that our story will be to God’s glory someday.  But you better believe when I enter those pearly gates and see Him face-to-face, my first question just might be “really God?”  ;)

Some of you know what we’re going through, and some of you don’t.  I won’t be talking about any specifics or sharing details.  But I’m not going to hide.

I’ve had emails and comments from {whom I believe are} caring people asking me to take down my blog, take down photos of my girls, youtube videos, etc. … that I should be protecting them.

And yes … if the thousands {yes, thousands!} of new hits to this blog are any indication … there definitely are people out there that will be feeding off of our “misery.”  But you know what? so be it!  Anyone that is an avid reader of my musings knows that I have the love of God living inside of me.  I have never backed down or hidden from my trials.  And what others might view as “misery” … my God turns to victory!

Are there some things I don’t disclose?  Sure!  But my main goal has always been to share the positive side of the trials God has allowed into my life.

The thing most people don’t understand is that God has allowed me to look at my trials through His eyes and with His love … not the world’s.  The world is full of hate and unforgiveness.  Seriously, who has the time and energy to put their focus on things that will tear them down?

Many, many, many of you … readers I didn’t even know I had … or that knew “who” I am, have contacted me with love, support, encouragement and prayers.  I am forever thankful and blessed by you.

You are the ones that I’m writing to …

When you have an active and intimate relationship with your Lord and Savior … He will sustain you.  As I’ve told some, I’m currently a walking Scripture cliche … I am living and breathing Philippians 4:7 “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.”

I would. not. want to be facing this trial without my Savior.  And it breaks my heart to know there are people struggling through this life without Him.

My prayer through this journey is that if even one of you come to know Him as I know Him … then our trial was not in vain.

And as far as my girls are concerned … those of you that are followers here for the right reasons, know that it’s my utmost desire to instill the love of the Lord in them.  To show them what it looks like to walk in His grace.  In His love.  In His goodness.  To live for the eternal, not the here and now.

And sure, some of you may have your own opinions and judgments … but please know it hasn’t been without much prayer and consideration that I’ve decided to stay true to myself.  Would I ask my girls to back down and hide?  Or would I want them to share with the world … what the enemy has intended for bad … our Lord will turn for good?

I choose the latter …

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58 Responses to “my god-given story”

  1. cyndi says:

    Love you sweet friend!

  2. karen zimmerman says:

    Beautifully said, my prayers are with you all.

    p.s. I’m glad I found your website, your a strong Christian Tracy! I know the Lord will see you through.

  3. Gretchen says:

    I was at a retreat recently and I wrote down some phrases that made me think of you, as you exemplify this so perfectly. “You take the hand you are dealt, you use your gifts and lessons to help others follow God. You don’t blame God for pain, you recommit to Him.” I love your blog on so many levels, the photos, the creative crafts, but most importantly for the spiritual gift you give. My prayers are for strength and the peace of the Lord to envelope you and your family.

  4. Kelly Barrows says:

    I’m so happy you have kept your site up. I think about all of the children I have cared for in the past and when this situation became known to me.. my heart fell with worry. After reading your words, I see you and your girls not standing alone, but facing this ordeal with the wind in your hair and in the arms of the most perfect savior. My prayers are with you and your family. ((Hugs))

  5. Shannon says:

    I have never commented on your blog but I read it very often. I say to myself, “I need some TSJ in my life today – i need inspiration”. I first came across your blog a year ago and at that time in my life I was scared because doctor’s predicted I had MS. Your blog brought comfort to me in such a fragile state and continues to bring me comfort. I often jot down bible verses you post on a sticky note and post it to my computer. Many songs on my inspirational playlist are from your sharing. You are such an inspiration and a child of God, your faith is a blessing to me because it helps me be a better person. Thank you! The least I can do for you is put you and your family in my heart and prayers.

  6. Just came across this and wanted to say Amen! Your love for the Lord is evident in your writing…through life’s trials we can have powerful victory with Christ Jesus. I have been through my fair share of hard times and I can tell you that God is Good all the time. And that He will bring glory out of every situation that comes your way…stay faithful dear sister in Christ and know that prayers will go your way!

    Jeremiah 29:11 – Is my life’s verse!

    From one photographer to another, we know that light is a beautiful thing in such a dark world…So glad Christ is our light!

    Kristin H. Bodnar

  7. Pat says:

    You are remarkable woman. I am in awe of your strength and ability to face life’s many challenges so bravely. God Bless you and your family!

  8. Donna says:

    Sweet lady I’ve been out of the loop for a while…just welcomed baby number three in March! So while I’m home nursing, I’m catching up on my reads – praying for you, for whatever you are facing…blessings to you today!!!

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