Seriously. A jam-packed day that I’m going to try to put into words.
My sister seemed confident I’d have the ability to eloquently put a post together that’ll explain it all perfectly. And yet here I sit wordless.
Let me start with a follow-up on baby Hunter. She had her doc appt today to get her stitches out … only to find out they’d split open, we didn’t realize it and she’s not healed yet. She’s on the strongest antibiotics available and in a bit of pain … but being a whiny trouper! We need to keep a careful eye on her surgery site and see the doc again in a couple of weeks.
Wordless. Still.
But here goes …
I had my appointment today with my new MS doc. He’s located in Chicago, so CJ and I took the train down.
Doc was running 2 hours late and my antsy hubs was none-too-thrilled about that!
Stalling.
Praying. For words.
By the time we got in to see the doc, it felt like we’d already put in a full day.
And because we were running late, we missed our train coming home and had to get a driver.
Out with it.
Bottom line … doc isn’t so sure I have MS. And he recommends I stop my injections immediately. So tonight, I go injection free.
Anything you want me to wish for, for you? Cuz just this morning, I tweeted that I was fantasizing about my new doc telling me I didn’t really have MS … hmmm.
Okay, so the nitty-gritty. He seriously isn’t sure why I was diagnosed. He’s super unimpressed with my MRI films. The type of preventative meds I’ve been taking are pretty old-school. If he were to put me on a med {and he’s really not convinced at this point, that I should be on one}, he would have me on a newer version of meds.
There’s a very real possibility the meds have caused me to have the symptoms I’ve been having.
He took a boat-load of blood from me … he’s running a bunch of tests on it … and will get back to me in a couple of weeks.
I spent more time with this doctor today, than I’ve spent with my other MS doc in total, since I met him.
So now what for me? For now, I’m undiagnosed. I wasn’t too sure how I felt about that. It feels sort of scary in a way. Helpless kind of? Like it feels more peaceful to be tucked into a diagnosis of some sort. Give me the facts and I’ll deal with it.
But the unknown? Unsettling.
My head was spinning. Still is in a way. But I’m coming to terms. And I’ll face this the way I’ve faced everything else.
While I’m Waiting
:: John Waller ::
I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I’m waiting
I will serve You
While I’m waiting
I will worship
While I’m waiting
I will not faint
I’ll be running the race
Even while I wait
I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve You while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting
I will serve you while I’m waiting
I will worship while I’m waiting on You, Lord
When we finally got home tonight, little Hunter was waiting at the front door with that beautiful, powerful hug of hers. Next came Wynter running up to me, looking at me anxiously as she asked …
“Did you find a cure for MS?”
Stopped me in my tracks.
Next up was Piper. Wanting to know what we found out. I told them I didn’t have to take my shots anymore. At least not for now. Maybe not ever. And there’s a possibility I may not have MS.
They were excited beyond belief. It amazed me.
So … where does this leave me now? I should know more in a couple of weeks. I’ll try to post as soon as I find something out.
In the meantime, I’ll share a prayer I said, just an hour ago as I ate my dinner …
Father,
Thank you! for answering my prayers. But now I’m asking
for peace as I struggle to make sense of this news.
I love you and I trust you and I know you have
good plans for me.
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I think that is wonderful news, and I know that HE does have wonderful plans for you.
Wordless! That’s HUGE news! :) We’re praying right along side you for what’s ahead….sending our love and hugs!!
Amazing….truly Amazing. Oh what a day…that’s for sure. God has plans for you. BIG ones! This news sent shivers down my spine and put a huge smile on my face. No matter what the outcome is, Tracie…He will take care of you. He has shown His presence. We are still here to support and love you and we will continue on praying…
WOW, tracie! What a whirlwind. I know exactly what you meant by having your prayers answered, but still feeling confused and unsure. Keep faith that God will be with you the whole way no matter where this new path leads you.
oh my word.
WOW!! I’ll take a couple million bucks please! What a crazy ride life can be!
your prayer says it all… oh good plans. kind of like the anticipation over a gift from a giver who sometimes hits it just right, and other times sends the most hideous sweater. but eventually we realize that sweater is warm and was made with love. limbo-land is never my favorite place to sit… the waiting! but it is a great place to sit and dream. and hope. i am praying that your boat-loads of blood tell us that ms is gone and that you are healed of ailments. i am praying that you stay strong through the waiting and that you feel the warmth of God’s arms all around you. and i am praying for all sorts of healing and a beautiful diagnosis :)
Holy WOW!!!! But you are right now you have to sit and wait to find out what has been going on with you all this time~Well whatever the outcome you know that all your family and friends will continue to support you….He is an AWESOME God!!!!
What fantastic news! Tears of happiness are flowing . . . I am so happy that you finally found someone that would spend the time with you that you need. You deserve it. It’s exciting that he specializes in this and he didn’t see any reason for the diagnosis. I hope the elimination of the shots (that you oh so love) will also eliminate the symptoms you have been having! Keep on praying and we will as well. God Bless you!!!!!
TRACIE!!!! That’s the most amazing news!! (As I’m sitting here going, ‘Oh! Oh!!! Oh my goodness!” Mike says, “Did you read Tracie’s post?” Thanks for telling me honey! LOL!) That’s truly amazing news — and I’m so glad you got that new doctor!! Despite the wait, and the lack of a definitive diagnosis at the moment, it’s got to feel great to have a doctor who is going to figure it all out for you! Woot!! Thank you God for prayers answered!
Wow Tracie…….. !!!!! Wow!
Amazing news. I’m just smiling so big for you right now. Happy thoughts and prayers until the Dr. gets back to you ! I can’t wait to tell my family today, they always ask about you. I’m so happy for you! XO
i KNEW you could do it (post so wonderfully) !!! i sent brett a text last night telling him of your news and he called right back (which he rarely responds), and he was happy for you. i pray for you every minute i can, and will continue… thank you for taking the time to talk last night. i love you!!
I am jumping for joy!!! I know it’s hard to be in “wait and see” mode and hopefully your test results will be back sooner than expected. In the meantime enjoy your lack of injections! Thank goodness for finding this doctor!!!
OMG!!!! I cannot believe this!!!! What wonderful news! Big hugs your way! more in an email later (once I can process this info better!!!) ;) xoxo, jenny
I cry every time I read your blog! I will be praying for you and your little one!
This is AMAZING news… WOWZA… talk about answered prayers. I hope you find some comfort and peace in this “not-knowing” stage. The one thing you DO know is really all you need— it’s in God’s hands! Sending my xoxoxoxoxos and prayers!!!!
I was just reading Jeremiah a couple of days ago. He does has plans for our lives. Plans that are hard for us to understand sometimes. But He also loves to answer our prayers. I am praising God right now for you my friend, also praying that you get some answers soon.
That is wonderful news! I’m hoping and praying for only the best to come your way!
wow. just wow! amazing news
wow, could this be a miracle? Such good news and praying it will remain that for you!
What great news! I am so hopeful for you that either you get a better diagnosis or better treatment. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Also – if you ever need anything while you are in Chicago – a place to stay, a ride or a giant pregnant woman to have lunch with – please let me know! :)
oh my goodness gracious i cannot even believe i just read that! i am so happy for you….HOWEVER i know exactly how it feels to be undiagnosed & be constantly wondering what it is that is exactly going on with your body. i will be praying for you, your family, & a lot for your new doctor…i KNOW he will be led in the right direction for you.
*LOVING WYNTER!!!*
Praying for you my friend. I just commented on another post but it was prior and now I am more up-to-date. You are in my thoughts and I hope that soon you will have good news and a treatment plan to help you feel better.
I just read this and so happy that there’s hope! It must be hard to not know for sure, but hang in there!